life is life like no other living

woah all that neggy bullshit below. although top songs from grizzly bear they don't need to be associated with THAT jeeeez. obviously the wires in my brain got tangled for a few months. (again)

anyway the point is i missed yet another flight. this time the all important final flight home. like that was ever an option really. to sum up i am the queen of missing flights and being disastrous at forward planning. it's all g though. burma next week and i couldn't be more excited. slightly scared but the excitement cancels that out. life is funny. life is kind.

i fucking loved sanya - china is the most bizarre place. i already miss all the people there. i love them, i love my australian pets, i love the funk house crew, i love my travel fam, i love kent mates, i love thick twins, i love noisy girls, i love all the brighton boys & girls, i love them all and i am so lucky to have supportive friends who haven't given up on me despite me not always being around. this is so CHEESY and shit but i don't care it's just to remind myself there are a lot of people around who care about me and i care even more so about them and it's a wonderful thing. most of all i love and miss the only one for me - simone cheah, pick you up in five?

it's up and down but it's mostly up and always ok.

but i'm learning not to ask

even more appropriate. life story. thinking of watching blue v to continue in my self-indulgent misery. just for tonight. there's fun to be had on the backs of mopeds with mental men and crater lakes to visit tomorrow!

It's a call
I fell into your arms that night
Don't ask
It's the time we had apart to sort things out
Just don't ask
It's the work you say you're doing
But baby, I don't even ask
It's the love that came undone between us
and nobody ever asks
There's a place and time for everything I know
Don't ask
But when I'm around you still I lose control
Just don't ask
You suggest the struggle goes both ways
but baby, I don't even ask
I just wish you had a little faith
but I'm learning not to ask

asia/stomach ache. or heart ache?

im in love. 2 months and 3 countries down, at least another 2 to go!!!! thailand with the girls was incredible, i got to see old faces and meet a lot of lovely new faces that i still miss now (we love the welsh!!), laos with harribo and martin, cambodia with tom... onto vietnam monday and then christmas in china with eddy <3

and then i guess i should go home. even though a massive part of me says 3 more weeks in australia.... sigh.

i want to be a travel bum forever...nz...south america...i live in a dream world and it's ok with me.


only problem right now is getting one person out of my head, i've obviously made a fool of myself. never show emotions ever, apparently it's just not worth it...

this song helps

My chest hurts a lot tonight
Maybe you can fix that
My chest hurts a lot tonight

I fell on a car again
Maybe you can fix that
I fell on a car again

And when I walk on by, I see you waving

Nothing ever feels the same
Maybe you can fix that
Nothing ever feels the same

Cum again all over me
I swear I’ll change just wait and see
And if I don’t please make amends
With everything we had again

I swear it was just a game
I have to fix that
I swear it was just a game

Cum again all over me
I swear I’ll change just wait and see
And if I don’t please make amends
With everything we had again

Just fix it for me
Just fix it for me
Just fix it for me

actually maybe not. blah.