January

January has not been a great month. I haven't done much besides being completely stressed out with university, i've been too poor to go out & i've been a really absent friend for quite a few people.
Unfortunately this isn't going to change for a while with so much on right now, just hope everyone can understand that, last year i put in minimum effort & did maximum partying but right now i need to do well & i guess if that means missing out on quite a lot of stuff then that's what i'll have to do.

Really though it's given me a lot of time to think & i feel like i acted like such a twat on so many occassions last year, i really don't know what people even think of me these days. I guess i'm just in one of those weird moods but i feel a bit lost in brighton right now & like i just need to go & see some old friends & remind myself of who i am again.

I'm pretty sure i'll snap out of this soon, plus loads of other stuff is really really good right now so i don't have much of a reason to be unhappy! My to-do list for the next 2 weeks:

• presentations x2
• all course reading. ALL OF IT.
• essay on modernism
• hair cut & colour
• shopping for presents
• spend no money on myself other than food & occassional bus
• search properly for another job
• book tickets for london
• phone my mum & nan a lot more

sounds like fun doesn't it! anyway, i'm going to spend my night chilling listening to music before tomorrow begins, i'll leave you with this. (it's not actually a video, just a song that makes me pretty happy)