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10 Mar 2010

and i got better things on the other side of town

firstly, a rant about how shit stuff is even though i cheered tonight listening to eye of the tiger/joy division/country teasers in my pyjamas. ANYWAY basically i keep failing at everything i do and think maybe i am actually just really unintelligent and shouldn't be doing a degree. really cool just when i need to start writing my dissertations. it's not my fault that i like reading for pleasure and find it hard to express what i mean in essays and have loads of ideas but they're all really vague. i've never been able to commit to anything, i float about in life so naturally i get frustrated when i'm forced to keep attacking the same subject. i don't even know what i'm talking about now but i'm sure it sounds retarded so yep, just to clarify i am a moron. brilliant.
also england is the coldest place ever ever ever right now. i hate it so much although i've grown to love being milky white and wearing purple lipstick in some kind of albino goth style. but i hate being cold, i hate not being able to wear nice clothes because i just have to wear about 50 jumpers over the top and i really hate the guy behind me at work who has his fucking FAN on because he feels the heat. WHAT HEAT?!?!?! yeah.
also fed up of two faced idiots/hypocrites in life. GO AWAY.
finally, reaaaally sick of only getting male attention from creepy perverts. e.g the shop assistant in bramber on campus just staring at me in the queue then being so creepy i wanted to die then telling me 'by the way you're really pretty' in front of everyone so that i had to run with my ribena up three flights of stairs to escape the embarrassment. LIFE.

plus side i went home again & saw alice in 3d & fell in love with it. every aspect of it was so goood mainly because it was more like through the looking glass & helena was insane & johnny obviously doesn't fail to impress & it was all fun & exciting & i want to live in that dreamworld so badly. real life is boring. also the cheshire cat was the best thing ever, when he goes upside down and is all floaty basically just need a cheshire cat in my life. sadly going home keeps making me really sad & homesick the moment i have to leave. i think i'm out of love with living by the sea side. :(
this is probably the most incoherent ramble ever but who cares i'm gonna watch stuff on 4od & go to bed bye.
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  1. Unknown11 March 2010 at 14:37

    This post made me giggle at parts, but feel sad at the same time! :( Youre not a moron at all, I know EXACTLY how you feel about the 'feeling floaty' bit. Even though I seem pretty sure of my course and what I think Il do when I graduate, Im secretly freaking out inside.

    Im not one of these people thats really amazing at one thing, im just kinda okay at something if I set my mind to it. After spending a certain amount of time on something I get restless and dont want to do it anymore. its happened with every part time job that Ive had and I dont want it to happen when Im trying to make a 'career'. Im really scared that it will :(

    Its hard to stay motivated but dont give yourself a hard time girlie. Youre human! :) All easier said than done, and staying in a positive frame of mind can be impossible at times but at least you have creepy shop assistants to make you LOL when youre having a crappy day :) what a strange world we live in! x

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  2. Liz!21 March 2010 at 02:59

    aww thank you & sorry for the late reply, i only just saw this! :)
    just so so scared about messing up my degree at the last moment & everything keeps getting too much. i know what you mean about the getting bored at part-time jobs thing, that's why i'm going to australia after i graduate, so i don't have to think about a career just yet!
    sdgndsjg so scared about life. but yes creepy men make everything a bit better in a weird kind of way! x

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